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[Nov. 18th, 2010|06:44 pm]
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Ever realize how wrong a relationship was when you thought it was so right? Interesting how that happens. One day you're happy and the next you see it for what it is. Thankfully, I have that to look back on and encourage me to choose the right person in the future, which I believe I've done.

I started going to church last year sometime around December. I knew there was something missing in my life and I was starting to go down the wrong path and being someone I wasn't. I needed to get a hold of life and myself. So I shopped around a bit and finally found one that suited me. Once there, they encourage you to get up and walk around and introduce yourself to people you've never met. Well, this was a somewhat terrifying experience for me. Not only was I out of my element (church), but now I'm having to either hug or shake hands with unknowns. Well after a few Sundays of introducing myself to Dan he asked me to go to lunch with him and his family, but I declined. Then I decided to try and look him up on Facebook through the church's fan page, but unfortunately you couldn't look up by name and of course all I knew him by was Dan. So after trying to sift through 800 or more people I gave up. I said, if I'm supposed to find him I will. I hit the back button and BAM! there he was! I couldn't believe it. So after talking with one another for awhile, we started hanging out and getting to know one another.

We were friends for some time, for reasons I wont go into, and remained that way until a month or so ago. At some point, I just decided that we were so great together and I didn't want to be just friends. I knew I wasn't going to date anyone else regardless of our "friend" status. It is truly a blessing that I've found someone as amazing as he is. The reasons of having to remain friends for so long before deciding to make it a relationship, were truly a blessing in disguise. It helped us get to know one another for who we are without the false pretenses of dating.

Both our families get along wonderfully. My cousin Steven and uncle Steve and I go hunting with him on his uncle's property all the time. We all go fishing together. If we're not with my family, we're with his. Never have I been in a relationship that I actually truly enjoy the company of the other person's family. His family is such good hearted people, they're just a joy to be around.

So yes, I thank God everyday that He brought Dan into my life and that I am lucky enough to have someone such as he. I'm still not sure how or if I deserve him, but I won't question it. Not only did I meet Dan through God, Dan helps make my relationship with God even closer.