|The magic words....
||[Apr. 15th, 2009|08:08 pm]
So I've been seeing this guy Jeff for a while now and so far I haven't really decided if I'm that interested, but it fills the void. Last night we went to see "I Love You Man". I'd give it a 2.5 or 3 out of 5 stars. It was almost an uncomfortable comedy because Paul Rudd's character is such a lame guy. He tries so hard to be cool and just can't really quite pull it off. Afterwards we went outside and talked for a bit. Seems like the weather never wants to cooperate for us. It's either snowing, raining or just down right cold. Last night it was chilly and misting, but it wasn't terrible. It at least let us stand out there for a good while.
So we talked about our houses and different projects we have going on and things we are planning for the weekend and so on. I'm so weird I know, but when he told me that he was thinking of buying a fishing license, it was like someone slapped me awake. He said that he's only been once and that was last year but he wanted to go again this year. So of course I got excited, hopefully not too outwardly, but inside I was doing the hokey pokey, lol. Anyway, I suggested that we go some time. So now all the sudden he mentioned fishing and I'm all about it? It's still undecided if he'll really enjoy it though, so I wont let myself get too ahead of myself, but that was probably one of the reasons I wasn't that interested. I don't want to get a year into a relationship again to find out they're really not into it or the outdoors. I have realized how important it is to me to have this in my life and relationship.
After dating Scott for almost a year and finding out that he didn't really enjoy being outdoors the way I did, it was devastating. I remember telling him when we first started dating that he had to be okay with me fishing, hunting, camping, etc and he said yeah and that he liked to hike. Unfortunately, I took that as a blanket statement assuming he also liked to camp and fish. Come to find out, not so much.
So I don't think I've let myself get too close to Jeff emotionally for fear of that happening again. I also told myself that whoever I date next HAS to enjoy or at least dabble in them. I believe my life without those few things would be depressing. I never knew how much I valued them until I seen my life without. Now of course I could still do those things even if the person I was with didn't, but I want to be able to share them with him and later possibly my children.
In summary, things are looking better and better for Jeff and I. Still not anywhere near ready for a commitment or relationship though. Still enjoy my freedom, but it's nice to know there could be a possibility for something more...